Greetings Beautiful People

I would like to welcome you to join me as I travel down my road to freedom. If you have ever dealt with shame, unforgiveness, bitterness, fear, anger and rage, (just to name a few) feel free to join me in my journey.

~Peace and Blessings~

Saturday, October 25, 2014

There Is Beauty In The Unveiling

What comes to mind when you think of being unveiled? Unveiled means to remove a veil or covering from or to make public.  Well, as I was removing the make up from my face yesterday after work, God said to me, "There is beauty in the unveiling." I took that to mean that there is beauty in my vulnerability, my imperfections, and those areas in my life that I don't view as so beautiful. The beauty is not necessarily found in the imperfection but in the fact that we need God to continuously perfect and heal us from those not so beautiful areas in our lives. 

So often we as people, especially us ladies, try to present ourselves to the world as well put together, without blemish or imperfection, so much so that we go before God the same way. We even go as far as trying to pray the most eloquent prayer and speak to him as if we are already perfect and have it all together.  I don't know why we think that the Lord wants His people to be perfect. If we were perfect we wouldn't need His grace and mercy. If we were perfect, we wouldn't see the beauty in the unveiling.  Ladies and gentlemen, our goal should never be perfection, but to be intimate and intentional about our imperfections with the Lord daily.

God says in 2 Corinthians 12:9 (Life Application Study Bible, NLT), Each time He said, "My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness." So be thankful for your imperfections because it allows God to be glorified once we decide to go before Him unveiled. 

Be enncouraged today because there is beauty in the unveiling.

I love you guys but God loves you more!

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Stay Focused.....Stay the Course

This year I decided to participate in the Ukrop's 10k and the training that they offer.  Training sessions are usually every Saturday morning and then they give you a schedule to follow during the week to help build up your strength, speed, and endurance.  Well, as you know today is Saturday and it's rainy.  So you know my flesh wanted to stay in my bed and sleep but I woke up to my alarm at 6:30 A.M. and really contemplated not going.  I even went as far as texting my friend girl to see if our group was still training in the rain.  However, after no response from her I reached out to my training group on their Facebook training page but still no answer.  I then sat on my sofa and went back and forth about going.  After a short while, I got up and began getting dressed. Before I knew it I was at the 10k training session. 

Well, once I arrived at the session we warmed up and we started on our four mile journey.  As I was running, I noticed how I ended up with the second group of novice runners who weren't that far from the first group of novice runners.  Somehow I was able to catch up with the first group and that is where I remained until I finished.  In the meantime and in between time, I found myself becoming unfocused and worried as I would stop, look back, and continue running. I did this a few times during my journey and I heard the voice of The Lord say, "Stay Focused and Don't Look Back."  However, I was getting tired and bored, ready to throw in the towel.  I ended up running alongside the first group of novice runners which gave me a little motivation to keep going.   I still continued to battle with just walking the rest of the course so I stopped. The first group was a little ahead of me and the second group was a ways behind me so I ended up running alone until two young boys gained on me and was running along side me.  Then eventually they passed me but by this time I was close to finishing and that is when God continued to speak to me saying, stay focused, stay the course, and don't allow distractions, which could be your thoughts, people, things, or anything that takes your attention away from focusing on the goal, the prize, and/or the victory.  He also said that though I may not see him during the course, he sometimes places people on the path as encouragement.  There are also those times when you have to travel the course alone, but if you stay focused and stay the course, He is always at the finish roooting for us to receive the reward in the spiritual just as the coaches were rooting for me to finish in the natural.

So I leave with you this scripture, Hebrews 12:2-3 that says: We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up. (NLT)

Be Encouraged.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Pants or Skirt Suit.......Which one do you prefer?

As I was traveling home from my work out a couple of weeks ago I felt God speaking to my heart in regards to my lack of submission to my husband when it came to certain things.  At first when he was speaking I thought maybe these were just my own thoughts as I could not understand why I would be thinking about such a topic after a hard core workout.  However, God kept the subject before  me even days later.  He began to show me my heart as it related to submission.  The Lord was showing me how I viewed submission in such a negative manner because of the examples I had before me in growing up.  The leading ladies in my life whether married or single always felt like they needed to have control over every aspect of their lives not depending or relying on a man. In addition to that, I grew up in a single parent home, where I learned to totally rely on SELF and no one else.  I watched my mother work several jobs and when something had to be fixed or repaired in the home she did it.  I'm not sharing this to take anything from her or my up bringing because I think she did an awesome job holding our home down on her own.  I just want to make clear where the root of my negative thinking of submission stemmed from.    

God continues to show me how those behaviors began to plant seeds in my life that later showed up in my marriage.  I could remember one day going back and forth with my husband about something so simple as what time our son was supposed to be taking a shower for school.  He wanted to do it his way and I wanted it my way.  Something so simple turned into one of the biggest arguments of our marriage.  It surely did not have to be that way had I released my will to control the situation and do what I wanted to do.  There have been other times where my husband has tried to take the lead on different things concerning our household, but because I was trying to wear the pants suit in the relationship I have sometimes hindered his ability to lead.   God was also showing me how my response to my husband leading our home was lowering his confidence as the head of the household.  I could also remember one day coming home after work and trying to now put on the hat of wife and mother, running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to be "Super Mom" and "Super Wife" and my husband simply said, "Samarra, you don't have to do it all, that is what I am here for, to take some of the load and stress off you."  

So as mentioned earlier, God began to do a work on my heart as it related to submitting and allowing my husband to lead our household in the direction of God.  God showed me scripture that spoke on the wife submitting to her husband and how much of a blessing it is to do so.  I am reminded of 1 Peter 3:1-7 that says, In the same way, you wives must accept the authority of your husbands. Then, even if some refuse to obey the Good News, your godly lives will speak to them without any words. They will be won over by observing your pure and reverent lives. Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes. You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. This is how the holy women of old made themselves beautiful. They trusted God and accepted the authority of their husbands. For instance, Sarah obeyed her husband, Abraham, and called him her master. You are her daughters when you do what is right without fear of what your husbands might do. In the same way, you husbands must give honor to your wives. Treat your wife with understanding as you live together. She may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in God’s gift of new life. Treat her as you should so your prayers will not be hindered.  I love this scripture passage because it gives the wife instruction on what's expected of her but it also gives the role of the husband and what's expected of him in return.  So for all my sister girls struggling to submit and allow your husbands to step up and lead your home be encouraged. I'm not saying that this journey is easy but the reward is great.  

I'm not saying I don't have my struggles with this from time to time but I see my progress and willingness to be the best wife I can be.  So I say to you ladies, pants or skirt suit?  Which one are you?

Monday, January 6, 2014

What kind of heart is your seed falling on?

So during my devotion time I studied out of the book of Luke chapter 8 verses 9-15.   This  passage gave insight on the seed of God and described the different soil your seed has potential to fall upon.  It defined seed as being the word of God and it broke down and spoke on the four types of hearts (soil) the seed would fall upon.

The first described is the seed that falls on the road, which is when one hears the word, but no sooner then they hear the enemy comes and snatches it from them so they don't believe.  The next one is the seed that falls in the gravel, which happens when one is super enthusiastic about what they heard but the enthusiasm doesn't run very deep. It's only another fad and the moment there is trouble, it's gone.  Then there is the seed that falls on weeds which happens when one hears the word but then the seed is crowded out and nothing comes of it, so people go about their lives worrying about tomorrow, making money, and having fun.  Lastly,  there is the seed that fall on the good heart, which is where a person seizes the word and holds on to it no matter what, sticking with it until there's a harvest.

This message definitely struck a cord in me because I have struggled with hearing the word and allowing it to fall on weeds, as I would often worry about trying to figure everything out when God was telling me that He had it all in control.  Honestly, I'm not sure why I struggled so much in this area as I have seen the faithfulness of God time and time again.  However,  I thank God for His goodness and mercy because it is new every morning.  His mercy and grace allows us a second and sometimes third and fourth chance to do things His way.  It allows us to really trust His word and for that I am grateful.

If you find yourself or have found yourself losing hope and faith in God's word, focus your attention on Luke 8:9-15 and I promise you it will help to put you back on track.

Be encouraged!

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Re-dedicated, Refocused, And Recharged in 2014

Wow! It has definitely been a while since my last post, but I'm more focused and determined to do God's will like never before.  This New Year's my hubby and I, along with our two children, spent it in our church home with other family in friends.  It was such an amazing time as I felt led by God to re-dedicate my life to The Lord.  I felt like God was telling me that he wanted to elevate me to the next level of my spiritual walk, but in order for me to get to that point I had to submit and recommit myself to Him.

Over the past year, I have been tried and tested.  I was pregnant for most of the year and during that time, though very different from the first time, I found myself at some points very overwhelmed and saddened, wondering how my husband and I would take care of not just one child but two.  During that time I also felt like I was at a stand still with my walk with God.  I think I felt this way because for the entire first trimester I was really sick and most times too sick to attend church.  It was at this point I think I felt like my spiritual growth had been stunned because I wasn't getting the word I needed at that time and just allowed the enemy to push me further and further away from God, so I thought.  Then at the start of my second trimester I lost my maternal uncle which hurt me to my heart because though I was taught never to question God I found myself asking how could this have happened when I trusted Him to make everything right again.  This pushed me further into the opposite direction of God until one day my spirit man began to literally crave the spirit of God to the point where I called my aunt who is the director of the television ministry of our church and asked her to make sure that they were live streaming the service so that I could feed my spirit.  Even though she agreed and I was able to watch and hear the service a part of me still felt spiritually defeated.

This went on for several months, until I decided to participate in a fast with a ministry I had become familiar with through Facebook.  Participation in the fast helped me to realize that even during the time where I have felt furthest from God He was still there walking me through my toughest hour.  Slowly but surely I began to feel a slight reboot of my spirit, still not where I wanted to be but surely not where I was when the year first started.  I then became involved with the ministry that facilitated the fast, as the leader of the ministry became my spiritual mentor and would counsel  me in areas where I was falling short of the glory of God.  I think she counseled me a few times before I eventually stopped as I was becoming more and more tired and exhausted as time was quickly approaching for me to deliver my baby.

After having the baby, I went to church but not often because of simple sleepiness and/or exhaustion or for the reason of me just not wanting to take the baby out around lots of people without having his shots.  Nonetheless, this caused me to regress a little more but needless to say within the last month into the New Year God has been showing me how even in what I considered a spiritual death He was still there making sure that my baby was healthy and had all he needed and some to prepare for his arrival in this world. God showed me how he allowed  me to go through some of those things so that I would began to rely solely on Him and not my own strength or capabilities.

So with all of that, it brings me to today, where I feel recharged, refocused, and most importantly re-dedicated to the plan and purpose God has for my life.  Be encouraged this new year and allow Amos 9:13-15 to minister to you.  Great things are in store for you in 2014.